ever since i quit my job i can finally relax and go out!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im wearing that dress to go downtown this wkend with doris. i miss being able to dress weird in sf just to go to class. oh well! =D ive been doing soooooooooo many doctors appts this wk. i think i will have had like 8 or 9 this wk gahhhhhhh all for my visa. i cant believe im leaving in 3 wks! ahhhhhhhhhhh i cant wait to start a new life. itll only be for 2 yrs though and then i dont know what ill do... man im so nomadic... im really sad i wont be able to go back to sf beforei leave since i have no money (not b/c i bought tah dress) and no time =( a lot of things are changing in my life these days. ive had to make adjustments to some things that are incredibly difficult and painful for me but im looking at that bright side of things and seeing the glass half full. b/c when i go to china... its going to be a big deal... im goign to be soooooooo independent when i come back. i'm goign to change my life around and not have my immature bad habits ... it'll be like the same me but just improved and self sufficient. im realy learning to take care of myself and my emotions. and one day ill find someone to share all of my happiness with. but for now, learning that being happy for myself, is enough... no matter how others judge me. | 
